NO HEART FOR EVIL PEOPLE.....

People become so evil and devilish these days. 
They just think of their own interests 
and have no concerns about others.
People put me down.
I always let them do that
because of the belief that 
I need to HUMBLE MYSELF.
BUT BECAUSE OF HUMBLING MYSELF,
I AM TREATED INDIFFERENTLY,
AND NO ONE COMES TO AGREE WITH ME,
BECAUSE I AM ALONE IN MY BELIEF.



So my decision tonight
is to bust these people around me,
who do no good to me,
who do devilish things to me,
and who do harmful things to me.
I DON'T SEE ANYONE GOOD AROUND ME.
THEY ARE JUST LIKE LEECHES 
WHICH SUCK MY BLOOD
AND LEAVE ME DYING
AFTERWARD.

People are just nice to me 
when they NEED HELP,
when they NEED MONEY,
when they are in dire need,
when they are dying,
they come to me,
and beg for food,
beg for mercy,
beg for love,
beg for anything that I can give.


I'm so SICK AND TIRED OF GIVING...
AND LOVING PEOPLE WHO CAN'T LOVE ME,
AND CAN'T EVEN RESPECT ME.
THEY TREAT ME LIKE A BEGGAR.
THEY TREAT ME LIKE A SLAVE.

I DON'T EXPECT THEM TO BE JUDAS ISCARIOT
AND I DON'T EVEN EXPECT THEM TO BE THE DEVIL,
BECAUSE I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING BAD TO THEM.
AND BECAUSE I JUST DID THEM GOOD THINGS,
SO I ALSO EXPECT THEM TO DO GOOD THINGS TO ME.


 I've decided to BUST UP, DESTROY, BREAK DOWN,
RUIN, CRUSH, AND SMASH THIS KIND OF PEOPLE.
THEY  SHOULDN'T HAVE A PLACE IN MY HEART.
THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE A PLACE IN MY MIND.
THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE A PLACE IN MY LIFE!
NOT EVEN A DOT! NOT EVEN A DOT!


I was a stage performer, 
a singer, 
and a recording artist. 
I worked with a lot of companies 
mostly owned by foreigners. 
I worked with lots of people, 
have been a leader, 
but TONIGHT, March 24th, 2012,
 IS MY FIRST TIME TO EXPERIENCE THIS. 
AND I CANNOT FORGET THIS....
TO BE TREATED LIKE A BEGGAR.....
NEVER IN MY LIFE THAT I BECAME A BEGGAR...
NEVER IN MY LIFE THAT I BECAME THE POOREST AMONG THE POOREST...
UNTIL TONIGHT....
ONLY TONIGHT...
I BECAME THE POOREST AND A BEGGAR IN THE HANDS OF THE MOST INDIGENT PEOPLE....
THESE PEOPLE AROUND ME TREATED ME LIKE 
I AM SIMILAR TO THEM....


NOW, I HATE TO BE LIKE ME. 
I HATE TO LOVE PEOPLE MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF. I HATE TO HAVE A HEART THAT LOVES ALL. 
AND THAT I PRAY TO THE TRUE LIVING GOD TO GET RID OF THIS LOVE SO I WON'T FEEL ANYTHING FOR PEOPLE ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY COME TO ME TO BEG FOR THEIR NEEDS. 
ANYWAY, I AM NOT GOD TO PROVIDE THEM THEIR NEEDS. 
BUT I USUALLY GIVE IN TO THEM. 
I HATE IT. 
I HATE IT.


So my next move is to BUST THEM UP!
I'VE GOT NO HEART FOR THEM ANYMORE.
THEY'VE GOT NO HEART FOR ME, EITHER.